First blog ever, so forgive me if I sound terribly boring and/or annoying.
Well, here's a poem I've written, for starters. I'll type up more stuff later.
Slowly I walk out
Searching for my quarry
Alert for threats
Seeing a veiled danger
I try to disarm you
With fair words and manners
It was not hard
For it was all true
But these words
The brutal honesty
Has been blocked out
Over the years
A Russian maiden
Fumbling in a foreign land
You drew me in
When did it happen?
I pressed my finger
To your inviting lips
Where it was bitten
Ever so slightly
I recoil in shame
Thinking myself vain
For assuming so much
Thinking you would
Find anything not repulsive
In one with a uniform so foul
Resigning myself to business
I still find myself
Inviting you back
To my hotel
Away from the hovel
That is my home
And holds so many memories
Seeing your fatigue
I assert myself
Deciding where your head will lay
I am an officer
Of no mean rank
Yet I find myself
Going to the floor
Personal comfort
Becomes of little value
Somehow all I want
Is for you to relax
I know you cannot
When I am around
I try to distance myself
I decide to let go
Yet even then
I cannot leave
I must be near you
In the same house
I reveal my purpose
Hoping for dismissal
I see your eyes fall
And so does my heart
There simply can be nothing
Between man and assignment
Assignment you are
Yet spark also
Igniting my mind and heart
So long in its pattern
Set through the years
You ask to leave
This I deny
I say it is my pleasure
You look at me in doubt
You cannot see that
I’ve gone crazy
To keep a suspected fugitive
To offer her room and bed
Yet I know it is right
A slip of the tongue
An empty threat
I laughingly threaten to
Shackle and bind
You laugh at my idiocy
My unintended joke
What goes on beneath
That silken veil?
Are you even now
Planning your escape?
All you would have to do
Is but to ask
And I would be the one shackled
Bound by my heart
Yet that cannot be
I cannot let it
Even as I mutter out loud
Thinking of all the possibilities
And my iron will
Perfected over the years
Weathered by cold-blooded killers
Seductive temptresses
Crumbles to dust
At your tinkling laugh
I seize your body
Pushing it against mine
I feel your skin, soft as satin
Ice-cold yet heating up
As my hands explore
The contours of your back
Our tongues twist and turn
As my lips devour yours
I pull away
Ever so reluctantly
Do I see you steadying yourself?
Could you actually feel something?
No, it simply cannot be
You were merely shocked
And do not lash out
Merely in fear of my station
We settle on the bed
Keeping separate
Even as I yearn
To hold you close
I will not force it
Disgust you further
Yet you roll still closer
I can feel your breath
Hear your heart
Your mind is a mystery
Your intentions, an enigma
But all I can say
Is the simple truth
I want you closer
Ever closer
But we do agree
That it cannot be
I, for your safety
You, for your own reasons
You say it is out of fear
Of my colleagues
Yet I sense
Something you hide
Too despicable
Too repellant a figure I am
With my uniform
Oh, the uniform…
I wish it were otherwise
Loosened tongues
Beating hearts
Probing hands
Glowing eyes
Another day
Another lifetime
Fantasy I want
Nightmare I walk
Even if it cannot last
This perfection
This tender trust
Just a man and a woman
To hell with rank
Throw away the fears
And let me hold you
I know, it doesn't rhyme, and there's no real pattern. But it tells a unique story, and it's special to me. So boo-hoo if you don't like it. My blog, my rules.
